Just came back from boston yester night and went out with jessica and vivian for morning breakfast at a self-perceived-french-but-actually-not-quite-french place called le peep.had some good quality chat which helped me to understand my friends and myself better. came back to prepare for my ECON 301 exam and then popped over to daniel's place for a farewell party for casey.

small patrick made food for us all which showed effort in the presentation and variety. was somewhat quiet over the whole evening. there was a lot of laughter but somehow we all clammed up when we tried to share a little bit more of what we have been thinking and feeling inside. we were eager to laugh and be jovial at each opportunity presented; i guess that was how we got to be comfortable with one another in the first place. and i guess that's how we choose to be comfortable with one another now.

i wanted to know how casey has been doing over there in michigan but felt there were other people more appropriate to do the asking, as i am the latest to know casey among the crowd present and have not really spent much time to know him before he left. i did ask one question though, when daniel gave me an open invitation to. Jiamin said that once i start, casey shd be prepared. or something like that. i dun really comprehend what that means actually. judie once commented that i ask questions that cannot be answered. From someone with much tact and love for others, i think that was wise council for me to be more sensitive to the occasion and person. after all, jane (chen) did say that she had the feeling of being interrogated when she conversed with me.  

but honestly, i'm not really interested in finding out whether Casey is flying or taking the bus back to michigan. neither am i into knowing what potential problems he faced registering for classes next semester. Or if he is staying in his previous landlord's place. I just wanted a glimpse of what he'll be thinking of on his long and quiet ride through the night back to campus, be it by bus or plane. i want to know whether he is happy and his outlook to the days ahead (within and without of classes). i want to know whether he has found close friends to share his life with over there, friends who can grow and mature together with him in prayers and in deed, just like the friends he has come to love and to part with here at uiuc.

Maybe i am reading too much of myself into the people around me. :=)